Get To Know Me! (you know you want to)

Well, for starters, I answer to any of the following: Kim, Kimmie, or Kimberlie. I have walked many paths of life. I have been a single mom, extremely underprivileged, well off, an army wife, a navy brat, lost and found. My life has been a wee bit crazy to say the least. I am not looking for any pity parties at all. I embrace and cherish every experience I have had. I learned a great many things about myself and these experiences have molded me into the person I am now. Honestly, without the crappy and amazing in our lives, we would be an empty canvas.

I have decided to start blogging because I just wanted to reach out to like minded individuals. I want to be able to share my passions, thoughts, and feelings in a creative way. Since I am a creative being, I felt this would be a great option.

I spent a lot of years as a bartender. Oh boy, those were some colorful years. I had fun, discovered my drinking limits, and met some amazing people. These are the years I really began to blossom. As a child and young adult, I clung to the idea that I had to be what everyone thought I should be. It was maddening. Talk about migraines, lol. As I began working in a bar environment, I discovered being different and standing out is what people were drawn to. This is were Kimmie came to be. The real me finally was given freedom to manifest. In my younger years, I was described as crazy, loud and weird. Which is a big no no, when you want to fit in, and popularity was supreme. So I began to filter myself. Which is hard since I am a brutally honest and quite blunt to a fault. So I began rather quiet and socially awkward, since I was going against my basic instincts on how to interact with people. I just a face in the crowd, never stood out but still never really blending in either. Once I started bar tending, I felt liberated. I could be me and make amazing money doing so. Which was important because I was a single mother, looking to make better money for my son and I.

I met my now husband, while I was bar tending. Let me first state, I have never been the kind of woman that thought every man they met was the one, or was "so in love" after two dates. When I saw my husband it was like everything else was blurred out and he was the focal point in the room. I just watched him walk by with my mouth open. It was actually pretty embarrassing for me. I looked like an idiot. Oh, memories, lol. That had never happened before. I have never been stopped in my tracks by a man before. I was swimming in new waters. I have always wanted to be my own woman and am fiercely independent. I pictured my life with a job, kids, and a house of my own. Never in imagining my life did a man come into the picture. I had found a man, that I could actually picture my life with. Things progressed with my hubby and I, and we became engaged 3 or 4 years later. Marriage scared the crap out of me. I am like a dude when comes to marriage. I knew it was a huge commitment, and wasn't sure I was really meant for that final step. Upon getting engaged I did not go out and buy bridal magazines and immediately start planning my wedding, despite all the probing and unwanted questions/advice. I was merely content being engaged. He, being in the army, deployed while we were engaged. I was seriously unprepared for the reality of the situation. The day he left, we said our temporary good byes and he was gone. I cried of course, I do have feelings and a heart after all. It still didn't hit me, until I got home. I walked into our bedroom and saw his clothes lying on the bed. He is boots by the closet and I realized he was gone and it would be a year of him not here. It was then that i realized, I could not picture my life without him. Which was insane to me that I could feel that way. Needless to say I began to plan for a wedding, praying he would be okay and come home to me. Which he did, Thank God. We have been together for 11 years and married for almost 7. We reproduced, lol. I brought the second half of my heart into the world on his fourth deployment. Our baby was a beautiful baby girl. It was at this moment I felt complete.

This being said no marriage is perfect, and children can be little shits from time to time. My children are what have made me want to do and be better. I am a Christian (I know i said the word shit, but as Christians we aren't meant to be perfect, just to repent), and fully believe God gave me just what I needed to get myself on the right path.

Anyhow, This is just a piece of me that I wanted to share. Any questions, comments or concerns feel free to respond.

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